One of my best college friends is getting married and I am very happy for him. He’s a joy to be with and my college life wouldn’t have been as complete and as fun without him. I’m excited to go to his wedding. It’s a life-changing event. And I would be there for him.
With this invitation, I am reminded of my future. My friends are being married and I’m far from that.
Nevertheless, I’m glad to have found myself and start my own journey. Before this, I have neglected to love myself for so long that I have become a stranger to myself. No, not even a stranger, but an enemy! The love that I needed, I sought outside. Think about this: your friend is suffering and you amuse yourself on your phone. Or imagine your brother is ecstatic for his job offer, and you watch your favorite sports team instead. Imagine you are your friend and your brother. What a frightening realization that you have betrayed yourself for nothing!
In the end, I’m making progress and am very grateful for it. I am finding answers to questions that I should have asked and sought long ago. I suffer yet I learn from my suffering. Life feels meaningful and that’s all that matters.
